A psychologist would just say that I'm seeing pregnant women everywhere because pregnancy is at the forefront of my mind... but I think that perhaps there really is something in the water! I cannot turn my head without seeing at least one pregnant woman somewhere. At least I'm safe in my own home lol.
And TWINS! Oh my gosh! They are everywhere too! I think maybe the LORD is trying to desensitize me to the sight of twins. Ever since we lost baby B, 6 years ago, I haven't been able to stand the sight of twins, but recently they are popping up everywhere. At least 5 people I know have had a set, or have gotten pregnant with a set (yet to be born) in the last year, and last month there was a week where I saw a set a day for each of the 7 days. It was outrageous. I would have given anything to carry both of my babies to term, and it breaks my heart still that I couldn't... but time heals all wounds, right?
I still feel like I would LOVE to be pregnant right now, even though I understand the reasons why we are waiting. I still wish upon every star, at every 11:11, and on every eyelash that we are able to have just enough money to get the vasectomy reversal done. Hindsight is 20/20 and if I had known then what I know now, we never would have done it to begin with. Now it's just about trying to fix our mistake, my mistake. But what I wouldn't give to be able to make this work now :(
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