So, I've already put in a call to the RE (reproductive endocrinologist) to see what types of things clinics are doing now, and to see how the prices have changed in the past (nearly) two years. I want to get ahead of things, and see what options we're looking at. We need to know if they plan on helping us at all... insert getting cut off by a bartender joke here..... or if we need to keep looking. I feel guilty even contacting these doctors sometimes. Here I am with my four amazing, beautiful, and healthy children, and am asking for another miracle while so many of their other patients are trying unsuccessfully for the millionth time to get pregnant with their first child. Even though we have battled infertility in the past, I still feel like I'm pushing it. I don't know, maybe they don't care. Maybe I could have 25 kids and it wouldn't matter to them.
I do know that we aren't going back to the same RE that we went to last time. We don't feel 100% comfortable with them. They're a great clinic, and their success rates are awesome. We just feel like they cater to a different crowd, an older crowd. Being young parents can really be a pain sometimes, especially when you have multiple children. I don't want to go into an already stressful process feeling like people are judging me as a parent by the number of years that I have been on this Earth. I want to feel nothing but support from my doctor. I didn't feel that there. So, we are still looking. I wish wish wish we could go about this naturally, but we can't. Between his infertility and mine, it's just not as easy as squeezing in some baby dancing at the right intervals, and POOF! Pregnant. We were lucky that the Clomid worked last time, but so far this time around, I still haven't ovulated at all. ARGH!
This waiting really stinks! Much like the diaper that I can smell from across the room. I suppose, I should probably get up and change that now. Yuck!
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