Waiting...

On my pregnancy symptoms to really start. I knew when I got my positive test early that I would be waiting on that "pregnant feeling" to catch up to the news. I always get nervous though, when I'm not immediately sick, or my boobs don't automatically hurt, or I'm not passing out from fatigue. I know a lot of women HATE to have all of the "negative" symptoms of pregnancy, but I say BRING IT ON! These symptoms are just a way for my little one to say "it's ok Mom, I'm here." This early on in pregnancy, when you aren't showing, and nothing is kicking you, it's hard to remember that you're pregnant at all without those symptoms.

On that note, I have continued to take pregnancy test after pregnancy test, just to make sure that they are still positive. I'm terrified that I'm going to wake up from this dream I've been having where everything was right with the world, and I was expecting another baby. I think the only thing that I have had since I found out is some food aversions, and some cramping. Otherwise, it's just buisness as usual.

My blood pressure was down today, and I have been trying to eat really good... but Tony kind of bullied me into eating fast food for dinner. I don't think that he meant to, but it goes back to him manipulating me. I was fine to eat at home but he kept talking about how we didn't have anything, and then he brought up something from Wendy's that I had previously mentioned wanting to try, and the dance continued. We ended up with fast food, I ended up with a tummy ache, and then I was pretty upset with him and didn't really kiss him goodnight. Even before he left to go and get the food, I told him that I really didn't want to eat fast food, and I was rooting through the fridge to find something else that I could eat. This is the first time he's manipulated me like that since I broke down and talked to him about it. So, I'm going to let it slide, just this once. But if he ever does it again, and I'm in a position where I end up doing something that I really didn't want to do to begin with, just because he wanted it... we will have a problem.

Anyway, I'd like to drop that subject please! LOL. On to happier things to think about. Like baby names. I don't want to jump the gun too much, but choosing baby name is my ALL TIME FAVORITE part of being pregnant! I think that our girl name is pretty much set... Anabel Charlotte, but there is another contender that I keep counting out, but then it gets right back up again. Avangeline. I LOVE IT. But it's so close to our surname that I keep thinking that there's no way I can use it. But then I think "well, we could call her Ava." I don't know, I guess I will work out a middle name for Avangeline and then decide when I meet the baby. A boy's name is not even on the table right now. Tony likes Adam. I do too, it's super cute for a little boy, but I don't know. I think it's a little plain. But simple can be good too. A good middle name would be Gabriel, which I really like, and there's no reason that the baby couldn't go by Gabe. Eh, I don't know. I'm still a little in love with Archer and Asher, and with either of those names comes the name Ronan, which I think is an uber masculine name, and would offset the more feminine Asher perfectly. But again, we will have to wait and see.

I just can't believe that I'm in a position to even think seriously about baby names. I can't wait until I get to meet this little one! I'm elated over this whole pregnancy :)